When I tell people stuff about myself they seem to understand me I feel so bad even if I am mean to one in even the slightest way I know no matter how good anyone is they can always be better and I want to be better then I am I know I can be better. I got so much to say sometimes Im afraid others will run I think people share my feelings share how I feel about certain things and I know people think I am nice but I want to be nicer Im passionate about being nice I know we all make mistakes I know some people wont understand certain things about me but there are those who do. Sometimes I look back at the past wish I had said different things or things differently I just want to be liked for who I truly am and be able to show people who I truly am sometimes life is so hard I jus make mistakes but I rarely am rude I just think well I could of done this instead of this why did I do that. What was I thinking back at that time why did I say that man Im a fool why was I such a jerk why did I act like that why did I say that and I know I am over reacting but I cant help but notice what I did wrong sometimes I want to be nice to people I barely know for the sake of being nice but Im afraid they will think Im so weirdo I put this on the computer cause it gives me a chance to take my time and its relaxing and I find it easier to put this kind of stuff on the computer. Im sometimes speechless sometimes I dont know why people like me I mean at least they could do is tell me what they dont like cause it could help me improve myself. I know some people who would say the exact same and these people know me from the inside out and would say well they should like you and some people just dont like certain people for reasons they cant explain all I can say is thats sad I wish I could just relax and show the inner me better I would like to take a moment to apologise to all those who think I have been rude to them for one reason or another I guess we all make mistakes but the best thing to do is admit them come to terms with them deal with them apologise for the mistakes that we have made from time to time I think it shows character shows how honourable we as people are when we admit our mistakes and when someone accepts it I think its honourable to not rag them out no thats wrong. I know we cant always be nice but we all try whether its an every day person you talk to or someone you meet I guess sometimes our minds are preoccupied with other things. I know I may sound weird to some people some people may say come off it what are you talking about but this is how I feel this is me and I am proud to be me maybe not always but usually Im proud to be me. Maybe Im too nice but I dont really think that is possible and if it is I am proud I worry sometimes that the past will come back at me sure it will some day I know sometimes I over react I just be myself. Maybe I take some things too seriously but I dont think I usually do I guess I jut want people to like me but Im sometimes afraid that some people will think Im weird or crazy or something. I know I am a bit repetitive at times I just try to speak my mind and be nice about it at the same time I think thats one of the most important and smartest things to do when expressing yourself is to remember to be respectful when speaking your mind and I think the world would be a much nicer place if people did that instead of just blurting out stuff without trying to be nice about it first